it's not a happy entry

Okay, I know its not good but I dont know what to do whit this. This feeling inside to tear apart. I cannot stop my tears and I hate this. He dont knows nothing about and smiles at an other woman sincerely, who can I be, but not I am. They happy and I... Im agonized. Thats normal, believes i love him. He wants a blonde, compared to him old woman who I dont resemble altogether. 

maybe I'm crazy

Am I crazy or this remix really good? 

Ismersz, nem?

"I'm stretching but you're just out of reach
I'm ready when you're ready for me"